~southpawdragon

Say you draw and you base your drawing on a person's face .. and you draw a pose base on references and models...
..armatures and what not..

if you can quite reproduce /duplicate or create the similar style you made using all these bag of tricks..

would you consider the style you created with those tricks not really your own..


Im sorta stuck in that situation.. I dont like the style I draw when its " just me" no figures to reference..no person to base on. Does this mean its my real style.

What I hope to accomplish is that with repetition.. The reference me and the no reference me will joing together someday..


I know artist who use models or references in the "art world" don't quite have this problem.. but being a comic artist arent you suppose to do all this in your head. alone.

roughing out the edges..slow progress ...but just keep on drawing...the style you want will happen.

WellLost my job on nov 13..
When it happened. I was expecting to feel anger or resentment.
Yet I didnt, even though I believe that I did not deserve to get fired.I guess its sorta like survivor, the work soap opera,the work load,being understaff and the stress level eventually caught up with me. It was my time to go.They wrote my name on the parchment.

At this point I think I will take probably a two month sabatical to focus on my comic book which has been a yoyo of some sorts.

The thought of looking for a job quickly is not on my mind right now, I know getting a new job won't solve what I need to do. Which is finish the mini series I've been wanting to finish. Haven't told my folks yet , I know they would instantly feel it is totaly my fault and I should look for a new job quickly.

forgive me If, Im rambling.This just happened less than 24 hours ago.I worked at kinkos by the way overninght for 4 yrs.

The good news is that I will get a severence pay. A months worth
The bad news is that I have to pay off some debt. .


So in a couple of days I will be posting stuff for sale at the news and announcement. Not on ebay at first(those fees can catch up with you)I can give a fairly accurate shipping and handling..

In some ways I think this may be a blessing in disguise to allow myself to change, I've grown so comfortable at kinkos I must have gone complacent and took the work for granted, because I knew I didn't have the will power myself to quit or look for a new job. Dispite being understaff and overworked.

The scariest thing right now is that I have no excuse anymore. I can't look in a blank paper and tell it that I can put anything great/good on you because I'm so tired and out of energy. Or I dont have the time.

I use to work 4 sometimes 5 days of 10+ shifts. You dont sleep just 8 hours for your body to recuperate. I often end up sleeping 12 hours.

mastering broken rythm... and feed the muscle memory slowly progressing in my muscle memory tactic of drawing better.. I have been using old colored pencils in my sketches.. just so i can put them to use and not use my non repro blue pencils. I only use them when i do real work. Like actual comic book pages. or art that are suppose to matter. yet in the end probably the ones i did in my so called waste pencils would turn out better..



arg i hate my scanner. why is it saying scanner not connected when i was just able to scan a picture before. damn mustek. if it wasnt so expensive to get an 11x17 scanner i would have dumped you long time ago...lose yourself in the music